loser

I’m starting to feel like a pretty useless human being. I go to school three days a week and I only go for 3 hours one of those days. I never really have any homework so when I get home I don’t do shit. On the days I don’t have class I sleep until late in the afternoon and I never do anything productive. I don’t work, I no longer have any real hobbies… I just don’t do anything. I have no ambition anymore, I’ve even been considering changing my major to something in a less competitive field. I’m afraid to put myself out there into my desired field because I have a terribly fragile ego and I don’t take rejection well. I know thats extremely pussy, but whatever. I just feel low and depressed. I need to sit down and re-evaluate my fucking life but I’m so lazy and easily distracted that I’m sure I won’t get around to that for a while. I have no zeal for anything. I’m literally just a bag of skin right now. I think I’m gonna get a job so at least I’ll have less idle time and more dinero. 

bleh.